Saturday....

We slept until 7:30 morning, which never happens. J has always been an early riser and talker. Me, I have always been the one to hit the snooze button over and over. Lately, I have been waking up and 4:30am ready to go. J and I keep looking at each other and saying "How can you sleep?" It is a joke between us because we are both so excited to bring this little boy home.
We had a list of things to accomplish so we made a list and started out. The first stop on our list was the hardest and I hope that none of you ever have to go thru. We have a Christmas tree that is planted in a boot that my Mom made for Caden's grave. It is a cute tree with ornaments and we have an ornament with his name and birthdate on it. It just sucks to have to go to your child's grave anytime but the Christmas visit is by far the hardest. Sorry to use the word sucks but it is the nicest word I can come up with and there are times when sucks is really appropriate for the situation. J and I said a prayer to God of thanks for the few moments we shared with Caden and if it were not for that experience this journey would not be as sweet or meaningful. I told J that it is a relief to walk away from the cemetary and not be devastated for days. That does not mean that it sucks any less but with time you learn that happiness does not have to be followed by guilt and you appreciate, really appreciate the good times.
If you know of someone who has lost a child at any age, please reach out to them during Christmas time and just tell them that you are praying for them to be comforted. I realize everyone is uncomfortable bringing up the loss of a child but believe me, the parents who have lost children will never mind you remembering their child and you are not causing pain by speaking that child's name or talking about them. You are validating that their child lived and had purpose in this world. Sorry, didn't mean to get preachy but I am very passionate about the subject.....
Today we are wrapping presents and watching football. My High School is playing in the state championship and Cowboys play later tonight. I can't wait to see all those Jessica mask.....Atleast those wearing mask are not having to wear bathing suites on vacation with her!!!
Go Trojans.....